My heart beats too big

"It's always ourselves we find in the sea." E.E. Cummings

I haven't updated this in years so heres the scoop (this is old and needs updated... oops)

I'm a mom to 6 kids. Oldest 18, youngest 4yr old twins. While I do not work out of the home, I have 6 full time jobs and more to keep me busy. I believe life is what you make of it, and blessings are handed out like wishes and stars.
I'm pretty busy, 6 kids, 6 schools. I keep on my feet and love my lil gadgets. Last present from the hubby was a Zune, which is currently synching my movies over to it as I write this.
Im very happily married to the man I should have had years ago but was obviously not ready for. Hes such a blessing. We have kitties and a bird. We have one kitty who has lame back legs, and we will watch over my 'miracle'forever.. shes kinda special to me.
I moved from a pretty wealthy area into a lower income to be closer to family. I live 4 blocks from my parents and grandmother now. I vacation in the same spot every year with my kids, and its a total sense of renewing my spirit each time.
I hold no hate in my heart. Not even for the woman who killed my son. I do believe shes evil and will get her just reward one day. I have no pity for her, and hope her life is full of blessings she can not seem to grasp. Its not hate, I hope shes miserable. :-)
I have had run-ins with idiots on LJ in the past and just chose to walk away and start a new chapter in my life. One attempt to help someone caused a year of pain. I believe people get what they are meant to and ALL things happen for a reason. Even my son passing had a reason, so hush now.
12.6.07 - My health has taken a turn for the worse and I'm in chronic pain. Life never seems to be fair. I suffer from DDD, Chronic Sciatica, SI Joint damage, pinched nerves as well as disc problems. Life is a struggle to remain pain free, and I lost that struggle a few weeks ago. My life is now lived by making lists and having others run my errands. Life is just not as easy as it was.
1.3.08 - Things change quickly. New Drs led to new health care for me, new meds and new treatments. Im improving although the list of what is wrong seems to never stop growing. I have an incredible life, I just need to take the year to focus on my health. It also happens to be my lil boys birthday today, who just is not so little anymore. Schoochy is 17, and I am proud of him. Hes turning out to be a great young man.

My journal is private, and its a cross post of my blog on my personal site. I do not update it everyday, and honestly I just don't care if I do. I do have a life and time is precious.
Ill change this with some cute graphics one day, but for now I just want to update and say Hi..

I have a second journal which I use for certain communities so my friends list is safe when I check it around the kids. I will be removing them from here eventually as I add them to my other journal. K, Thx.